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Shadowrun inaugural session got cancelled due to Nick feeling ill. Poor guy. I was insomniac the night before so it's just as well, though. Looking forward to reschedule. Tess's character has the best street name ever: she's former corporate security and goes by "Auntie Trust." That's right, writhe.
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Frustrated and dealing with a lot of empathy-pain because Kimiko has an ingrown claw, and won't let me clip it for her. I know the techniques the vet uses to keep her calm and still (scruffing, voice and bearing) but she doesn't respond to me like she does to the vet; she'll just fight no matter how composed I am, and I don't want to hurt her by accident so we're at an impasse. We'll get her to the vet soon to deal with it, but it's just awful to see her suffer -- her every move suggests the pain she's in.
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Miss home a lot right now. The moreso for having discovered that there's a group dedicated to teaching Chinuk Wawa (several, really) for little or no cost (long as you abide by a code of ethics) and every now and again they hold weekend workshops that even I could afford to attend. The family who runs it seem like interesting people too. Apart from that I just kind of miss the Northwest -- it doesn't help that our winter is being rather more like a Seattle one, with only scattered snow and a fair bit of rain. Nostalgia bites sometimes.
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Affection and cuddles and playtime are a big confused brain-knot right now, seasoned with mixed emotions and toasted to a golden brown. (That metaphor kind of got away from me there.) General shape of it seems to be "want more of all, not really finding that, enjoying a new cuddly-friendship at least online, generally trying to become more aware of how brain operates here." It's not a depressive or sad thing exactly, just kind of...tired, and quietly lonely in a patient-but-wistful way. It's like mild sleep dep, or having not eaten breakfast but not really feeling painfully hungry -- just a sort of light, quiet sense of "probably not enough of that thing" which fails to overpower.
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I have like a million things on my mind, but not enough focus to journal about any one of them productively. There's a thing for that. I should go do it.
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Frustrated and dealing with a lot of empathy-pain because Kimiko has an ingrown claw, and won't let me clip it for her. I know the techniques the vet uses to keep her calm and still (scruffing, voice and bearing) but she doesn't respond to me like she does to the vet; she'll just fight no matter how composed I am, and I don't want to hurt her by accident so we're at an impasse. We'll get her to the vet soon to deal with it, but it's just awful to see her suffer -- her every move suggests the pain she's in.
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Miss home a lot right now. The moreso for having discovered that there's a group dedicated to teaching Chinuk Wawa (several, really) for little or no cost (long as you abide by a code of ethics) and every now and again they hold weekend workshops that even I could afford to attend. The family who runs it seem like interesting people too. Apart from that I just kind of miss the Northwest -- it doesn't help that our winter is being rather more like a Seattle one, with only scattered snow and a fair bit of rain. Nostalgia bites sometimes.
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Affection and cuddles and playtime are a big confused brain-knot right now, seasoned with mixed emotions and toasted to a golden brown. (That metaphor kind of got away from me there.) General shape of it seems to be "want more of all, not really finding that, enjoying a new cuddly-friendship at least online, generally trying to become more aware of how brain operates here." It's not a depressive or sad thing exactly, just kind of...tired, and quietly lonely in a patient-but-wistful way. It's like mild sleep dep, or having not eaten breakfast but not really feeling painfully hungry -- just a sort of light, quiet sense of "probably not enough of that thing" which fails to overpower.
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I have like a million things on my mind, but not enough focus to journal about any one of them productively. There's a thing for that. I should go do it.
